From Default to Choice

Posted by Jacinta Hin on May 26, 2008

I am heading home from a day of surfing. It has been six months since I last visited the beach and I wonder when I stopped having time for what was once a non-negotiable weekly outing.

I am exhausted, but utterly content. Every single muscle in my body is hurting, yet I feel more alive than I have done in months.

When had I started buying into the belief that I was too busy to get myself on a train for a day of physical delight and mental unwinding?

Come to think of it, I had been too much of many things for quite a while now. Too tired to take proper care of myself, too self-absorbed to notice I was neglecting my friends.

That dangerous belief that starts with “I am too” is a true game-stopper. It keeps us stuck and small. Before we know it we are no longer doing the things we were once committed to and are giving in to living by default.

That is not how I want to live, I tell myself. No more ‘too busy or too tired!’ I want to wake up every day knowing that everything I will be doing that day is by choice and according to plan.

And with these words, I am breaking through the barriers of my self-imposed beliefs and literally feel my world expanding. My body is shaking with fatigue, but my mind is still and my soul is beaming.

All is well. I have returned to where I always intended to be.


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  1. Mark McClure July 14, 2008 7:55 am

    I like it!

    I am too hypnotized to notice.. wake up! wake up!

    Happy Surfing.

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